I just calculated my CGPA, for the whole 2 and a half years of my degree program and I can honestly say I am quite disapppointed with the cumulative grade. I know I only have the realization to do well in my studies during my 2nd semester in Macquarie.. I have been pressuring myself to do good. Yet they are not enough.
I'm partially giving up but I know the journey is not over yet. Opah once said to me, never start something if we planned to give up halfway. Well at that time she was referring to me sweeping the backyard of my house when I was around 8-9 years old. I almost gave up sweeping cause I was tired when she suddenly said that and it still lingers in my mind, the advice.
I know I shouldn't take things too seriously, but I just can't stop pressuring myself. I want to do the best, I want to get good grades, I want to achieve success in life but I guess I just don't do enough.
I'm tired with all the mess I triggered.